Sunday, November 18, 2012

Inspiration refresh

Big Daddy's very cooler and yummy dinner off Union Square Untitled 

 Love the old school game they provide at each table.

 I went to the boogie down Bronx to check out my niece's new apartment. Untitled 

Love NYC transportation - issues and all!

 This family sat across from me on the 2 train. 
 They has the most wonderful accents. 
Every was in their Sunday best and so excited. 
 Every few minutes they counted down the number of stops to go. 
Made me wish I had sons like these.

 Park by my nieces house

 Cousins Brenda and Connie Untitled 

My Abuelita Elena 
Pure love

 Nice bus ride down to Union Square

 Opening her birthday present at the hotel. Love the city lights twinkling out the window. Untitled 

 My eldest niece with her brother and mom. Untitled 

 Love the artwork that goes into the station signs. Untitled 

 View from the W Hotel at Union Square Untitled 

 Miss NYC breakfast sandwiches! Untitled 

 Self portrait

 City at twilight

 Empire State of Mind :) Untitled 

 I met Sheryl at the clock at Grand Central Station Untitled





Thursday, September 27, 2012


Watching a re-run of Castle tonight and heard this

"People change when you aren't looking"

I often think that applies to ourselves as well.  The more interesting question for me is
"Where were you looking all that time?"

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Bittersweet day

The movers came today and packed my house.
Within six hours they wrapped, bundled, disassembled and boxed 10 years of stuff.
This stuff is just stuff....but each box, each wrap, each bundle
....was the triumph of being a first time home owner,
... was dreams created,
... was 7 IVF cycles lived and lost,
... was a baby nursery that never was,
... was dreams lost,
... was tears of joy, pain, loss, happiness and even defeat at times - but what sweet victories were won here
As I walked thru the house I saw
..... a backyard that hosted countless pool parties, BBQs and two weddings,
..... a living room that hosted my sisters wedding and two baby showers,
.... a home were I hosted thanksgiving dinners, birthdays, new year parties, Christmas parties
.... a home where my two first fur babies came to live with us and today leave beloved ashes in tin boxes
.... a home that I love.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Whole new adventure

A few months ago I was contacted regarding a whole new opportunity.  After two months of pondering and waiting they made me an offer.  My family and I are on a whole new adventure.  Leaving those we love, the place we live, the things we know for a new place, new people, new adventure.  Not because it is better but because growth doesn't come from within comfort.

I am ready to grow.

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

I love you, Flickr

My computer at work hates me.  Well, to be factual I should say that the backup hard drive hates me more.  

It started with a blue screen.

Followed by me screaming (co-workers don't like that a lot).

And then it happened again. **Sigh**
So I purchased a great HUGE terabyte back-up hard-drive. Performed a back and felt so darn proud!

Quickly followed by this silly statement"No, Mr. IT guy.  You don't have to back up my stuff.  I already did it"
Welcome Windows 7.  
Goodbye....all my files, pictures, favorite links and programs that I loved.

Hello having to build my work collection of files and link for the past 10 years again.  
Yeah me! (pass the Jack Daniels please)

and hello, old lover.  
That random memory a blog, 
a picture,
a something another file that I no longer have 
AND can't quite remember.

And then....aha!  I still have my Pinterest board and my Flickr favorites.

That my friends leads me to my post subject (and no, you aren't the only person that feels that I am long winded!).  I had forgotten about many of these pictures I had marked as a favorite.  What do you think it says about me?  I think it says volumes but then again, I know me. :)

So, don't trust your own back-up hard drive usage ability and embrace keeping stuff all over the web. :)
What are you pinning or marking at favorites lately? 

Thursday, May 03, 2012


Back in the saddle again. 
Little sore. Little disappointed that I gave up once.
These are my tools to success.
I might have taken a break.
But I haven't given up.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Progress Prompt #15

[15.] Do you suffer from poor body image, low self-esteem or depression due to your weight?

Are you freaking kidding me?

Hum, YES - I have suffered on and off with all of them: poor body image, low self-esteem or depression.  Just today I have poor body image dialed up to 150%. 

What are you doing to heal yourself? 
I blog - even if I don't post it.
I take a self-portrait almost every single day.
If you know me in the real world you know that I LOVE pictures: mine, others, random. Me and Flickr are having a love affair. It is then really interesting that I have a picture blackout in my life.  Years upon years of maybe 10 pictures total of me. By far, this process of taking a picture of myself is the most positive thing I do each day.  One of my favorite active (aka keeps it moving, is active, not-a-couch-potato) does this as well thus proving I am not complete narcissistic.  Or maybe just proving that there are enough of us out there to make a club.
I weigh myself each day.  Again - there was a blackout period of never weighing in. 
I surround myself with positive images, people and things. Choose to be with people that believe that change can happen and believe in me. I already have enough nasty self talk going on in my head and don't need any external ones. 
The mirror is my friend.  When i first started taking ballroom dancing lessons that hardest thing wasn't the steps, it was looking at myself in a full-length mirror.

How do you maintain a positive outlook or attitude?

Being present.  Paying attention to what I am thinking about myself at all times.  This is a work in progress on most days and I don't really know how to answer it today. I hope to be able to have a much more comprehensive answer some day.  For today, being present is the most important thing.